http://cluborlov.blogspot.com/2009/02/social-collapse-best-practices.html

I love This American Life…like..really.

A friend told me to check out this episode when I told him I was now working for/in Early Childhood Education.

It’s a really great episode…like..really.  At times it’s very sad and the third act is just devastating. But…you know…

And I have to say that my experiences have shown that “professional parents” in “middle class neighborhoods” do not always parent properly, but I guess that’s obvious.

I don’t like the new way in which WordPress provides links…so here’s a link that I do like, at least more so.

http://thisamericanlife.org/Radio_Episode.aspx?episode=364

and a lot of things have changed..or maybe they’re just…rejuvenated..It’s probably more like they’ve settled, despite my current state of unsettlement. I’m getting there though!

I feel like I’ve cheated the system. I feel like people are supposed to work harder than I have in order to live here. But really, I’ve worked pretty damn hard over the course of these past 23 years. I’m going to enjoy it. I just never want to take it for granted.

Greer is flying in tomorrow night. She and I have been best friends for the past 18 years.  “Best friends” sounds so juvenile when used seriously, but I can’t help myself – we have A LOT of history.  I’m very pleased that we’ll be sight-seeing together.

I’ve yet to explore most of the city, particularly the touristy spots. It overwhelms when I think about the rest of the Bay Area as San Francisco is so much all on it’s own. But I’m looking forward to it all…

WHALES and REDWOODS soon to come : )   (and more!)

I hate sleeplessness. If I’m unable to fall asleep in half an hour, I become very frustrated and nervous. I used to have difficulty with sleeping. I do not wish to return to those days. So here I am again, blogging from my blackberry.

I’m at my sister’s tonight (and tomorrow night) in order to spend some time with Yuyi. Cayten and her douchely boyfriend are taking care of him until November 29th, when we head off to San Francisco.

I’m actually sleeping in my bed with the aforementioned subject title sheets. Come Dec. 29th I’ll still have the sheets (thankfully!) but not the bed – Cayten keeps that.

I think I’m making this whole moving thing into something it’s not.I wish I could just forget about it for the next couple weeks

Life is life, no two ways about it! (Does that saying hold any literal weight? Oh yeah! It does! I just realized! There’s no two ways about no two ways!)

I think ima sleep now.

Goodnight, dear BLOG

I dun voted!

SHIt!!!!

Apparently I didn’t have to early vote at a location in the same zip code of where I’m registered. I can do it at any early voting location in Miami.

I wish I hadn’t just learned that now.

The woman behind me in my early voting line looks just like Michelle Obama! Except she’s too short.

I told her that if she and I melded together, we could be Michelle’s double and possibly get assasinated! Though I left out the assasination part with her.

I got a good laugh from her and the other surrounding people.

: )

Gotta love voting in Florida!
Let’s hope this one at least counts!

In the previous blog (from last night,) I meant to make clear that I’m very grateful for my overwhelming mass as my changes are mostly very good. Some I’m not too thrilled about, but I think they’re necessary since I’m a big believer that “you can’t have the good without the bad” – haha! I’m glad I’m experiencing the not-so-pleasant manifestations now, rather than waiting for the uncertain balls to drop, as I’d be convinced they would because it wouldn’t be right for me recieve all these wonderful gifts without some bothersome obstacles and/or events. So better now than later!

I know more uunexpected negative things can still come my way, but at least they might have the same chance of happening as more unexpected wonderful things. That’s life!

So yeah, tons of gratitude for the beautiful and not-so-beautiful things in my life right now!

This line is f-ing long! I don’t think I’m going to be able to vote before I have to leave for class. And I really can’t miss anymore class. Damn it! I drove a half hour out of my way to do this in my old neighborhood where I’m still registered! Gah!

I’m nervous that things are happening too fast for me to process everything. Major changes are underway in my life, and the physical manifestations have deadlines, start dates, bills to pay, and uncertainty. All this and more is upon me now, in the next couple of days, the coming weeks, months, and I guess for the rest of my life. But a lot of these “manifestations” are condensed into one giant looming mass that will only begin to deflate (or de-massify) probably starting on New Years day, which I guess can be considered a good thing?

I now know why my father practically forced me to get a blackberry. He knew I would feel the need to write late night blogs while trying to fall asleep after my real computer has already been shut down. He also knew I would need the fancy calendar that comes with it which is now reminding me about every half hour of the next thing on my “to do” list. Then he foresaw my need to read emails pertaining to americorps, possible future housing (now much more so solidified), school, possible future cat-sitters (now thankfully solidified with the one person I should have asked first), etc. in the bathroom stalls of my new workplace/restaurant. And he totally knew I’d need a blackberry to constantly update my facebook statii according to the ever-changing and superficial feeling or thought I’m having at that given moment.

Good watching it out, pops!

There are a lot of emotions from these changes that I need to process and feel. It’s very important to and for me that I don’t bury my feelings, no matter how rationally unfounded and/or trivial they may be. I enjoy my full range of emotions (at least after the fact for some). When crying over sadness (hate that word!) I usually have an underlying feeling of relief and gratitude in the moment. The release feels so good, powerful, and I guess freeing (for huge lack of better adjectives.)

The last half of october has just been putting one foot in front of the other, and rather quickly at that – especially on my jogs. I’ve been thinking and hoping that November will bring more processing time than this month. I think it will, even though it’s closer to my California move date. Actually, my tentative CA move date is in nov. But I have my reasons – I just don’t feel like processing them here. They’re rather tangible so they don’t need much processing – they come naturally. The intangible stuff though – whew!

In case y’all didn’t catch these on facebook, haha!

These are intended to complement my previous (and retarded) post.

At some point I will inform you, dear BLOG, of the whole moving situation. I’ve never been so stressed out in my entire life, and I’m usually a fairly stressed person…When I get more time, I will esplane my life to you.

These are esellent:

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/nation/interactives/farmaid/

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2007/06/19/AR2007061902193.html